Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Beginning the journey, one step at a time..

[10:30 pm]


Finally started on the journey towards the flying dream.

I was referred to one of our ex-officer who is now an IP in the airline of my choice. After conversing with him over the phone for close to 30 mins, I have gotten an idea of what to expect when I join them.

At the end of the day, its the passion and motivation to fly which the airline is looking at. And I think I have what it takes to be a pilot.

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Saturday, January 28, 2012

Songs that make you remember...

[3:51 pm]


If I can use songs to describe my feelings..these would be the ones;

1. Someone Like You by Adele

2. Lips of An Angel by Hinder

3. I will be waiting by Lenny Kravitz

4. Always be my Baby by David Cook

5. Fix You by Coldplay

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Tuesday, January 24, 2012

By a twist of fate..

[11:45 pm]


Sometimes Fate has its own ways of playing with you when you least expected it. When I didn't see her on last Thursday when I went back to Base, I thought it was just Fate that it's meant to be. How wrong I was!!

By a twist of fate, I had to go back again the following day due to work requirements. I just walked into her office in the morning for a brief chat before rushing off to complete the work required of me. Even though I wished I could had stayed longer to talk, the urgency of the task at hand forbid me from doing so. I can see that she didn't expect to see me and she was shocked when I walked in.

Seeing her was a good consolation for me. The fact that she was professional about the way we spoke sent a clear message; that the relationship between us is going to be professional. At least she wasn't ignoring me. But, how frail and tired she looked..

She is still on my mind on days when the mind is not occupied with work. I know that I have repeated time and time again in my earlier entries. But I just can't help it. The heart will just feel heavy when my thoughts drift to her. Even though friends have told me to let it be, I am still facing difficulties. I guessed I got too emotionally involved with her that I have been scarred again..

All thanks to her friend..this would't had happened

If only I didn't agree to coach her friend that fateful night, things would had been different now. As I looked back, I felt that I had been led into an ambush set by her and with her extracting my words and using it against me. I felt so exploited..sighz..girls, next time I will be more careful around her friends...if there's still a next time, that is. But this is also partly my fault. My braggy attitude, over-eagerness, direct and blunt way which I speak caused me to end up in this state.

Sighz..how I wished I could control these bad points of mine....

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Saturday, January 14, 2012

The consolation of LASIK..

[1:53 am]


Perhaps LASIK done me some good by burning away my tear ducts..

I can't cry that easily despite the pain in my heart...even though I bury myself in my work so as not to think of her, at nights like this, she still pops out.

I miss her so much..and the heart aches for her...

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Monday, January 09, 2012

The reason defined...

[7:41 pm]


Spoke to our mutual friend yesterday and finally got some insights to why she is ignoring me.

All he said was that my over-eagerness did me in. In addition, since she had told me that both of us were impossible, I should had gotten the message. This, together with some of the little things caused the final straw. When I still persisted, she chose to ignore me.

Why? Why? Why do I have to hear this from our mutual friend instead of from her? It hurts to know the truth from someone other than her.

What should I do?

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Sunday, January 08, 2012

On days like this..

[7:13 pm]


It has been close to one month since the last contact. Till date, I do not know what happened between us. I still try to text or email her at least once a week, hoping that she will somehow reply. But she never done so.

I hope that all is well for her and she is always in my prayers when I pray. In fact, praying has become a habit which I do so before going to work. I have been trying to keep myself occupied to prevent the thoughts of her from creeping in; working, photography, gym. But memories of her will just creep in when I drive to-and-fro work or other activities. It gets worse on quiet nights, just before I shut my eyes. No girl has ever had such a grip on me, less S, many years ago.

Perhaps separation may be the best option for her..but god, I miss her so much...



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