乌云在你心里搁下一块阴影

我聆听沉寂已久的心情

清晰透明就像美丽的风景

总在回忆里才看得清

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我？

我想牵起你那没温度的双手

但你过往温柔已经被时间上锁

只剩挥散不去的难过

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念

北风掠过想你的容颜

虽然我的爱就像烧成了落叶

却换不回熟悉的那张脸

为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前

爱你已经穿越时间

两行来自秋末的眼泪

让爱渗透了地面

我轻轻随著北风凋零摇曳风铃

想唤醒被遗弃的爱情

把那上锁的温柔解开

把你的难过挥散去

It is 662 days, 9 hours, 32 minutes and 13 seconds since that day.

Here I am, still hoping, that one day, we will be together again. Perhaps, what you may not know is that, you are always on my mind every single day. You are also in my prayers all the time as I pray for your safety every night before I sleep.

I know it pains all my friends (I hope so. :) ) to see me unable to move beyond this barrier. That fact is compounded further after seeing a great friend of mine moving on after so long. "You will never move on if you never take that first step.", quoted her.. and she bravely took that first step.

Makes me wonder if I will be able to take that first step, not that I have plenty of choices though..haha..Actually, is there someone for me to a choice in the first place?

Many of my friends, colleagues and bosses thinks that I am using the excuse of work commitments as a cover not to find a spouse, but what they don't know is that I have found her, but just that it is a case of at the wrong place and wrong time. I wonder what would have been the future for us if I had just finish my National Service, gone to University and join SIA instead of taking up the study award...maybe we would be flying together..such is the cruel twist of fate.

Sometimes I also wonder, whether I have done enough to convince her of my love for her. Is the sending of emails to her periodically, enough? Is asking her out for a drink to catch up even though knowing that she maybe flying to somewhere enough?

Like long distance running, there is always a mental barrier that you will encounter, one that prevent you from going on anymore. When will that barrier kick in when you say "Enough is enough"?