Finding myself in the lost world..

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Just for you..

[7:51 pm]

How do you tell someone who's been on your mind all these years that you have loved her since the day you have seen her many years ago and that you still do?

If there is a way to measure it, even if you have to multiply it by infinity, take it to the depths of forever, she will only have a glimpse of how much I feel for her..sounds familiar? I covered it briefly in a few posts ago..

I guess I have been deceiving myself, that by trying to love another girl, I could really forget her..but time and time again, it has been very difficult. I thought that time could dilute away my feelings for her, but..

She knows how I feel for her, but she don't want to get into any relationship that soon and the associated heart-breaks..I understood that...I have never wanted her to be sad...I just wanted her to be happy..and as long as she's happy, that's enough for me..

And now, looking at her radiant and happy face, I am contented. She's in my thoughts every day, and when the missing gets really bad, I just drop her a message, just to wish her well..

Right now, she should be flying somewhere over the world, so Merry Xmas to her!!

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Back from Penang..

[6:55 pm]

Penang gives me an impression of a sleepy town where everyone is warm, things are slow and easy..you get the gist?

I was filled with apprehension when I had to take Air Asia there as I had a bad experience with them when I flew to Sabah many years ago. But I was in for a surprise as apparently the standard has improved with new aircraft, better service and of course, good looking flight attendants. Guess, they must have learnt from the best, SIA; even the safety brief sounded and looked so SIA.

Just to side-track, there was this flight attendant on my inbound flight which just reminded me of her...her long silky black hair, smooth and fair skin..was a stark reminder of her..

Going there with the family can be at one moment, full of fun and laughter, at another moment, full of frustrations as we argue about whether we should hire a cab or take a cheaper option, the bus.

But it was fun, can't remember the last time the family went on a trip..think was to Genting, last year?

Penang, as told by my friend, is full of beauties..smooth, fair-skinned and extremely friendly..unlike the bigger cities like KL and JB. Even those from the smaller towns in Penang are not an exception. We managed to pop by to visit a long time nanny who took care of us when we were young, and she is still fit and hearty at a grand old age of 92.

The BEST part of it? I was told by nanny, not to be too choosy and get a girlfriend; apparently, father has been telling her that 2 of my brothers are attached and yet the eldest one is still unattached. That started the match-making proposition of introducing one of her grand niece who is working at an local hospital here..isn't that GREAT?

Haiz...

Other than that, Penang offered many great photo opportunities, which, due to time constraints I did not managed to cover..if you want to see the photos I have taken, just check out my fb.

Penang is a unseemingly quiet place, but hidden beneath it is an island full of enthusiasm and vigour, and I will definitely be back again!!!

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Saturday, December 08, 2007

Weird Dream..

[5:37 pm]

Got up from a deep afternoon slumber after having a weird dream...

Remember me mentioning that phrase that goes like this: "..when two persons are or used to be close together for sometime, you just tend know how they feel, even though you are miles away..."? For once we were together again.....surprisingly, on the bed..no no, nothing of the kinky sorts..but just cuddling on the bed somewhere in a sub-zero environment.

The dream was so real that I could smell her hair, feel the warmth of her body next to mine, her beautiful smile...now, how real can that get?...Weird..

When I woke up, I received a sms from her..she is now in seoul and just woke up from her slumber too...now, how coincidental can that get? Never asked her whether she had the same weird dream as I did though...better don't..haha..

Now what's the probability of 2 people asleep thousands of miles away and having the same dream? The probability should be the same as seeing a star in the middle of a typhoon...

Haiz...guess I still haven't gotten over her..the love has become too deeply embedded in my heart for anything to flush it out..

Ok, time to wrap up this post and continue hunting for my accommodation in Australia..Have a great weekend folks!!

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Thursday, December 06, 2007

Tell her this...

[8:34 pm]

Was reading a blog entry from a recently re-acquainted friend from secondary school days, which happened to be a colleague from the same enterprise. I am always attracted to beautiful writing and hers is one of the couple of my regular reads.

I came across one of her postings which she found somewhere..which filled me with the many memories of her, which, seems so near, yet so far away..

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Tell her something for me.

Tell her I cherished all the time we had.

And I never took any of it for granted.

Tell her that I fell in love with her from the day I saw her..

Tell her this, if she really wants to know how much I love her..

Take my love, multiply it by infinity and take it to the depths of forever..and you still have only a glimpse of how much I feel for you.

She'll understand. She's a smart gal.

Tell her I've still got a lifetime's worth of things to tell her.

Which I don't have a lifetime to do it.

Tell her that all those times we talked about a next time - I could never be certain when the next time would be.

Tell her that if, for whatever reason, she should think of me - I'll be thinking of her too.

And if she should ever miss me, just think of me and there I will be.

In her heart. In her thoughts.

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This may be my last post before I go on my long overseas leave...yup, taking a break from all those work by going down there to visit the relatives..so just in case, Merry Xmas and Happy New Year!!!!

Labels: Matters of the heart

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Monday, December 03, 2007

Aftermath of a run cum walk..

[12:55 pm]

is a inflammed left foot and sore lower limbs, one which makes every movement involving it painful..ouch..

Sometimes I wonder, who in the hell will pay so much $$ and spend a beautiful Sunday morning participating in a marathon?

Yes, yours truly is one of them. I paid a substantial of $$ and woke up at an ungodly hour (0345) just to participate in the StanChart Marathon. My reason for participating? To challenge myself and to explore my limits..Now I am paying for it with sore muscles and an inflammed left foot..

This run was the culmination of all my early Saturday morning runs and some injuries, one which could had threatened my participation.

The run started off uneventfully and I controlled my pace to prevent aggravating my left foot which had just recovered from a hairline fracture. The morning run was cooling with winds to cool down the sweating body.

The pain and muscle cramps came in after the 21 km mark. With the application of muscle rubs, I struggled on, falling back to the routine 5 min run followed by a 2 min walking. But it was useless..after 2 mins of running, the cramps came back and I had to walk. I wasn't going to give up on the run after coming so far...so onwards I trudged.

It became a walkathon as many people resolved to walking after developing muscle cramps. The first 10 km was relaxing with the beautiful weather and shaded trees at ECP. After the 30 km mark, the going became tough. It didn't help that the weather was scorchingly hot.

You start to wonder how come you walked so long and the next sign marking the next km has not appeared. When you see the sign, you are filled with a mixture of happiness and dread; On one side, you think to yourself; "34 km down, 8 more to go." On one end, your legs are starting to cramp up on you, telling you to give it up...

I have told myself before the run, that it was not a race, just a run to challenge my limits and that even if I could not run, I will walk to the end point. So onwards I trudged, drinking water at every drink station and stopping occasionally to stretched the protesting limbs. My buddies were either at the back or in front of me, having succumbed to cramps.

When the 40 km marker came into sight 2 hrs later, I knew the end was near..but it was torturous..my mind has became a blank and I had to generate whatever amount of determination I had left to push on. At the 41 km mark, I started on a slow run, running to the finishing point. The last few hundred meters were filled with cheers of support (by beautiful gals..that helped abit), which made me more determined to complete the run.

I finished the run with a timing of 6 hrs 34 mins..not good by any standards, but heck, I finished the run, thats the most important thing.

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