Monday, January 30, 2006
This CNY has been a pretty boring affair..with the usual works; reunion dinner followed by a trip down to the temple to pray for a smooth year ahead, ESPECIALLY in the academic areas...hehe..
The first day of CNY was a boring affair, stayed at home 'coz according to the Chinese tradition, if there's a death in the family, which in this case was grandma who, sad to say passed away last National Day, one is not allowed to celebrate it.
So..what did I do? Rotted at home while toying around with my latest acquisition; My new Fujitsu ultra-portable lappy. This is a far cry from the piece of lead I had carried around for 3 years...this is a sleek and small piece of technology which I think its worth my investment..haha..
Today was the best..I got so bored till I went down to school to do my tutorials!!!See..how bad things can be!!!? Man is really 犯贱....got things to do, they complain they have alot of things to do and no time, got nothing to do they also complain they are very bored..wtf? So in the end, I managed to finish up Fluids Tutorial and come to terms with the formulas...which is quite an achievement..tomorrow, I think I will be trying to finish up the Heat Transfer tutorial and my GE assignment...[Sab..don't start panicking on me being too hardworking..I am just too bored..:p].
But come evening, went over to a friend's house to 拜年 and to 捞 yusheng..which was pretty fun affair. When you are tossing the yusheng, you must bring it as high as possible and say many auspicious stuff...many of which are:
1) Get out of the school intact (for those who are studying)
2)Business will stay good (for those of us running their own biz)
3)TP will not see us speeding and that their speed camera is spoilt all the time (for those of us driving)
4)the amount of work we do will be less and the amount of pay cheque we receive will grow (for those of us working)
Oh well, nothing auspicious to talk about, just our wishes for the new year...haha..also spend the night torturing our ears and throats KTV..but heck, it was a good bonding session...
Now now..time to sleep and tomorrow, I think I should put on those running shoes and start clearing away all the fats built up over the weekend..haha..
Till then..cheerios!!
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Friday, January 27, 2006
Clearing up the clutter...
This is the time of the year where there's no excuse to procrastinate from cleaning my room. And it is the time when you realise that the dust can be found at all nooks and crannies.
It is also the time where you suddenly find that you have stuff that you never even remembered buying. Books, model aircrafts, diving gears, etc, all make up the amount of organised chaos I call my room.I feel like re-modelling my room but, looking at the mess, I gave up..haha
My collection of model aircraft has reached the stage where I don't even have space to display them.My novels, textbooks and lecture notes are piling up in such a way that I have to go down to Ikea to get 4 boxes to pack them away. With the amount of clutter reduced, I think it's good to last another year before I have to go through the whole thing again..
CNY this year will be a pretty quiet affair because according to the Chinese tradition, one cannot celebrate New Year for one year if there is any death in the family...which in this case, was my grandma.So...I will be taking a short break till Sunday. On Monday, I will be doing some revision and clearing up the back-log of tutorials.
Meanwhile...no joy on the gal..so hopefully see her when the CNY hols are over..So thanks for all your guys and gals blessing..really appreciate it!!!
And now...time to take a shower and hit the pubs for a drink...
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Saturday, January 21, 2006
Saw her on the train while going to school yesterday..and again while I was at the benches doing my tutorial. But...yes, but, I just couldn't work up the courage to approach her and make friends with her...arggghhhh!!! *Slap face*
Ever since I noticed her last semester, I have been trying to work up some courage to approach her..haiz...the heart flutter when I see her around, the palms get sweaty and the mind goes blank...haven't been feeling this for a long, long time...damned!!
This is going to be last semester and after this, I don't think I will have the opportunity anymore...guess somewhere, somehow I will have to find some courage to approach her and get to know her....
Oh God, please give me the courage to step up to this fair maiden and know her...
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Tuesday, January 17, 2006
She is on campus again!!!!Saw her at the library when I went there after lecture to clear the mail-box. Yes, it's the "bus-stop" gal. I have been noticing her since last semester when I was chilling outside the lecture theatre. As usual, she is always alone...wonder why..hmmzz...maybe it's because of the ice-cold exterior she portrays all the time which scares off people...maybe..
Thought she went for attachment, but she is around, so conclusion, a second year direct-entry student. I will always run into her when I am in the library, at the bus-interchange going to school or when I am at the LWN bus-stop waiting for the bus..
Some fate eh?....maybe it just a mere coincidence..oh well, I will see how things go..if I am lucky, I might run into her again..
Enough of all these excitement, still have to finish up my assignment and tutorials...
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I have straightened out..
my thoughts..I have been feeling sorry for myself for the past few days..feeling sorry about my state of relationship with Sharon, my academic studies, my future in the force, etc.
Some of the things are just a plain wasting of my brain cells and time, which could be better utilised for revision and out-door sports. I guess I should always know what my priorities in life are. I still have a couple of months worth of studies left before I graduate from the hell-hole and that should be my main focus..not getting side-tracked by matters of the heart.
If it is meant to be mine, it will be be meant to be mine..if not, no matter how hard I try to catch it, it will never be in my hands...I rather leave it in the hands of fate to decide for me. The uni kakis of mine have been up to no good, trying to pair me up with this gal which, I ABSOLUTELY have no interest in. I understand their good intentions, BUT, I have always held the notion that love can't be forced upon you..it should come naturally..
As for my career, I still need to prove my worth and mettle in the air defence community before leaving to become a commercial pilot, provided I can make the grade. I think the next few years will be a pretty exciting journey for me, but one which could be lonely..but heck, if it comes it comes...no point worrying about it...
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Sunday, January 15, 2006
What I always wanted to say to you is....
....that it broke my heart when you got married 4 years ago.
.....that I was filled with mixed feelings when you got separated 1 year ago.
....that it pains me to see you hold down 2 jobs in order to overcome your financial difficulties.
....that I will always be there for you whenever you need me.
....that I want to hold you in my arms and give you my shoulders to cry on when you need it.
....that my love for you has never changed since I saw you 10 years ago.
....that there will be a chance for me to love and take care of you again.
This is what I have always wanted to say to you.
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Friday, January 13, 2006
and the end results will either be that of triumph or tragedy. It is a race where, with success, comes tremendous rewards, where with failure, consequences will be high.
Yes, the race to prepare one-self for the ultimate challenge begun today. After a week of "acclimatisation", I have finally embarked on the race. Today, marks the day I started staying in school late to do my self-study, tutorials and my FYP.
This is the time where all efforts are to be put into the tasks on hand. But, all these will mean sacrifices..SACRIFICES such as;
1)Not going out for late night suppers or chilling out over a beer during weekdays.
2)Self-studying after school hours on weekdays, at least 5 hrs a day on weekends.
But, with sacrifices, comes the rewards for the fruits of your labour. I relish the day where I will go up the stage to receive that piece of paper and the popping of the Moet and Don Perignon champagne outside the auditorium. Nothing will matter anymore than finishing up the years in this hell-hole and getting out of there in glory.
The journey will be long and ardous, but with steel determination and support from my friends, I shall make it. May the power be with me and Godspeed.
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Tuesday, January 10, 2006
of a perfect wedding would be that of a military style, with 4 pairs of sword-bearers lining along the aisle with their swords drawn. According to military tradition, the groom and bride walk towards them, they will lower their swords to block their way and issue a challenge for them to solve before raising their swords to let them through.
The military wedding is by far the grandest and most fairy-tale like wedding I have ever witnessed. Being a military officer, it is a honor to be able to hold a military wedding. Imagine the groom in his dress whites with his ceremonial sword walking with his wife down the aisle...I think wifey would be the star of the night..hahaha...
So, why the sudden talk about wedding? Am I getting married? Nope..not in the near future. I am writing this because I just attended my cousin's wedding. Since my cousin is of my age, I suddenly became the talk of the town. Relatives and family friends were asking me when my turn will come, saying since my cousin is married. The "best" thing about it was another cousin of mine is also getting married in September!!
As 3 of us are of the same age, with the 2 of them getting married this year, I am being stressed by my relatives and familiy friends to get hitched. Father, as usual, can't wait to drink the tea offered by his daughter-in-law and carry grandchildren, while Mom is non-chalant about it.
I am like, "What the hell?", I am too young to get married. I still have to build up my career in the military and I want to go flying. In short, I have alot of things left undone. I don't want to be tied down so early. My ideal age for getting married would be between that of 27 - 30.
By then, I would be matured enough to handle such big changes to my life-style and be able to take care of other-half comfortably. Now it is still not the time..I still want to do the things I love. So meanwhile, I rather have a girlfriend and date for a few years first before getting married.
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Saturday, January 07, 2006
Here comes the rain again, falling from the stars..
"Oh, that I had wings like a dove, for then would I fly away, and be at rest.
— Psalms 55:6"
It has been raining the whole night and it is threatening to become whole day affair today. For a outdoorsy person, this is mood-dampening. It is during this type of days that I always feel reflective and sad.
It is also the time when I can feel the weight of responsibility I am shouldering. The responsibility to my family and to those around me have to be factored into my head before I embarked on anything. Sometimes I feel like I am a caged-up eagle, who cannot spread his wings and soar high amongst the clouds.
It is not an easy task for with it, comes with restricted freedoms, having to prioritise everything that you do. But with it, comes the feeling of being appreciated and loved...all these for a little sacrifice.
But there's still something missing me..a yearning for companionship. You can say companionship can be found in being with a bunch of friends. I can proudly admit that I have a great bunch of friends..they have been my another pillar of support..but a companion who can I spend my life is difficult to find.
Given the freedom-loving me, my other half would have to be understanding enough to give me enough room. I thought I found that in Sharon, but due to my hesitation, I lost her...we were so young and naive then..
But 10 years down the road, both of us have changed. I just hope that I will have the opportunity and time to tell her all the words that I have kept in my heart. One day, it will come....
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Thursday, January 05, 2006
I was taking the train home after school and noticed a sight that,perhaps, most of you fellas are familiar with; the mad rush for seats...
What's most interesting is the fact that people will be standing near the doors, as soon as the doors open, they will virtually run in looking for any empty seat, like vultures scrambling for a piece of meat...once they have secured a seat, you can see their faces beaming with pride, as if they have won the race..
And when the train is packed, people will just stand near the doors without moving towards the center of the train. This selfish action deprives others from getting on the train. The situation is worsened when everyone is rushing to board the train as the warning chime sounds.
Perhaps this is due to our kiasu culture that is causing all these "me, first" mentality...so much so that we are losing ourselves, our values of compassion, respect for others, etc. Ask yourself, when was the last time you gave up your seat to the frail-looking elderly, pregnant lady, little kids?
I think sometimes we should really take a step back and reflect upon ourselves, whether we are losing ourselves in the rat-race, whether is it important to have all the 5Cs in order to be happy.I rather lead a life of happiness, doing the things I love with the persons I love than lead a life of rat-race which will ultimately leads to unhappiness.
Enough of all these blabbering...these few days have been busy with me trying to acclimatise myself to the world of lectures and tutorials..so much so I have fallen sick along the way..damn..but hey, slowly I will get back into the groove..
And, of course, I have started to cook again, something I have not done since going for NS. All these started after watching Jamie Oliver's cooking show. It sort of rekindle the fire I had when I was young, cooking up a storm..hahaha..I have also gotten his cookbook and slowly I am going to cook up a storm...when mom's out of town that is...she just won't let me do anything drastic in the kitchen, short of making breakfast, cooking the occasional omelette and fried rice...
Another interesting thing is;my friend has "invited" me to take up a Private Pilot License with him after graduation, which will ultimately provide a stepping stone to the world of commercial flying. This is a path I will go on after finishing my required service to the country..flying a commercial airliner..so after the exams, I take a short break before embarking on the journey to the wide blue yonder..
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
To those with fears about the future...
This post is dedicated to those who are graduating soon and worried about their future.
If you are worried about finding the right kind of job or where your interests lie, the following might help.
1) Get a piece of paper and pen (pencil also can lah). Write down your interests and which areas you academically strong in. From there, you will be able to do some matching and hence, find a job that satisfies you. It worked for me..so I think it should be able to work for you all peeps.
2)Do not let the fears of the future prevent you from what you could have been able to achieve.
3)Always believe in yourself and have faith that things can only turn for the better and not worse.
4)It is good to know that no matter how well you have prepared yourself, Mr Murphy will always rear his ugly head.
Remember, each of us are different. In my whole life, I have felt alone at times. I might be a out-going and cheerful fellow, but there's always been something vague about me that I myself couldn't understand.
It was through self-discovery that the SOMETHING was my own life. I command, as I quote from Richard Bach, the ship of my life. I decide on it's mission, the rules and discipline, at my word waits every tool and sail, every cannon, the strength of every soul on board. I'm master of a team of passionate skills to sail me through hell's own jaws the second I nod the direction to steer.
We must always find our own purpose in life, for once we have found them, will we be able to lead a life full of fulfillment.
P.S. Sab, take it easy, no point stressing over what you can't control in life.
On a lighter note, school has started and as usual, it was a chore trying to drag the lazy body out of bed and go to school. I think I would need some time to acclimatise myself to the routine but is good to go back and meet friends again.
Sharon is sick again. I think the toll of holding down 2 jobs must have done this to her. It just breaks my heart to see her like this.
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Monday, January 02, 2006
there aren't much choices when it comes to mobile phones without any cameras yet is blue-tooth enabled?
I was at the mobile shop with Mom today and chanced upon this accidentally. Mom was getting a new phone and I wanted to check out a replacement for my phone. Now, because of the nature of my work, I am not allowed to carry any phone with any photographic capabilities.
The fact that I am going to report for work in the middle of this year sure hastened the search for a non-camera phone. Actually I am pretty fussy with my selection. The factors in my search for a mobile are:
1)No clamshell or sliding phones. If I need to go out into the field, the phones need to be wrapped in zip-loc bags to water-proof them. So, if they are water-proofed, how are you going to slide it open or open the clam-shell in order to dial the phone or answer the phone?
2)No photographic capability. Because of my job requirements, camera phones are a big no-no.
3)Must be Blue-tooth enabled. This is to facilitate the answering of the mobile while driving. Now, this is the requirement that is causing the most headache in my search for a mobile.
But, in my search for a replacement mobile, I have narrowed down to 2 which meets my requirement; Nokia's Communicator 9300 and N-gage. Knowing me, I would go for the Communicator..it's a mixture of PDA and handphone. Even though it is bulky, I think it's pretty suitable...but the cost is also pretty steep..at a cost of $900, it can be a hefty investment...unless you people out there are kind enough to sponsor one for me...hahaha..
Anyway, school's starting tomorrow..and it will be my last semester in that dreaded place.How time flies, holidays are over...time to bury myself in my books and move any un-neccessary issues to the back of my head..
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Sunday, January 01, 2006
This is my first post for this new year. What does new year countdowns hold for me? Seriously, I have really no idea. For the past few new year countdowns, i have either been having bbq sessions with my friends or in camp doing duty.
To me, it seems like another celebration, where we just do the countdown sequence and voila, another new year has come...and this time with fireworks too. Most of the time, it's just another ushering of a new year and with it, new hopes and dreams.
But for this year, I reflected on my meagre achievements and big mistakes of the yester-years. With that, came the resolutions which aimed to fix the short-comings of my life. Perhaps it is the coming of age where we become wiser and are more matured in our dealings with many issues.
It also made me understand the sufferings in the world around us and that we are indeed fortunate to have what we have. While we are having fun,stuffing ourselves with food, drinking ourselves silly, have we ever felt for those who are suffering in South Asia, Africa etc?To us, they might just be another image on the telly which we will never face at all. But to them, we are all there is to help them.It's just sad that we never even care to bother about them..it's becoming a "Me first" or "too bad, but luckily it ain't me" mentality. Guess it's time we should look at ourselves and do some reflections.
Even in my course of work in the force, I also asked myself, why am I deployed somewhere out there when others are having fun? To those having fun out there, you people will never appreciate that while you are having fun out there, there are many others who are doing our jobs to ensure that everyone is safe and sound.
They are the unsung heroes who deserve some form of "thank you" or a smile of thanks for keeping us safe. I didn't feel intimidated when I was viewing the fireworks display yesterday at Clifford Pier, instead I felt safe as I enjoyed the breath-taking fireworks.
With the safe and uneventful New Year provided by the unsung heroes, we can look forward to achieving our resolutions and dreams. Thanks and happy new year!!
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