Finding myself in the lost world..

Friday, April 28, 2006

The fun begins!!!

[1:27 am]

literally...next week will the highlight of my battle with the examination board. 4 battle engagements in 3 consecutive days..with the toughest in the middle of it all...2 engagements 1.5 hours apart of each other...with both classified under the heavy-weight category..

As I bring up my last ounce of energy to plough through the revision notes, While I envy my friends who have finished or are finishing their papers this week ...but fear not, for after next week, things will turn for the better...that is, if I don't go crazy in the process.

By then, I can afford to spend some time toning my body back to shape, go out with her more often, set into concrete, my grad trip, and the list goes on...and last but not least, prepare for the FYP presentation...

All these are coming soon, but the obstacles between them have to be cleared before I can move on...

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Monday, April 24, 2006

Thanks to all you!!!!

[2:21 pm]

For rallying around me, providing comfort and a listening ear in my times of need...

All I can say is that when the going gets tough, small acts of gesture such as this can brightened up one's day..I know for you fellas have showed me that we are all suffering together during these stressful moments...and yes, one more week and we will all be free!!!

This morning's M460 paper was a simple affair...all thanks to Frankie...without him, I think we would surely be goners. He taught us the essentials and together, by doing the past year papers, we managed to learn a great deal in the shortest amount of time...so...THANKS FRANKIE!!!

And for Indra, the good-ole Ah-Bang....thanks for lending me your ears and giving me advice when I had problems of the heart..Sometimes I do need someone to pull me out when I am down in the dumps...

And Sab..Thanks for the encouragement...I will remember that...we are all in it together...and we will survive all these stuff they are throwing to us

Thanks Guys and Gal...The BEST is YET to BE!!!

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Sunday, April 23, 2006

A Little Boy's Story

[12:07 am]

A sudden bout of depression has hit the little boy. He is being weighed down by the amount of responsibilty on his shoulders and his spirit is screaming for release.

The exams are exacting a toll on him as he stays in school till late, ploughing through the huge amounts of notes, past year papers, etc. On the homefront, he is expected to ensure the house remains in pristine conditions as his mom is visiting relatives overseas...it doesn't help that his siblings are serving the country and hence he can't split up the household chores.

He feels that the gal he loves so deeply is taking him for granted and that the love seems like a one-sided affair....he is feeling that he is someone for her to fall back on when things are bad...He is wondering what he means to her...

The little boy wish that he could stand in the pouring rain and let it wash away all his sorrows..yet he can't afford to do it for he has exams to contend with.He akins it to a little plane flying through a treacherous thunderstorm, desperate for a glimpse of a pair of lights which signals the safety of a landing strip...

The little boy is tired and he is going off to sleep...hoping that tomorrow will be a better day..

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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Will I make it?

[11:29 pm]

461 was a killer...even though I managed to do all the questions, I doubt I can make it..especially since I screwed up majority of the questions. Lets see; Fins (gone), Heat Conduction (spherical coordinates came out!!! wtf?)..and the rest..haiz..don't mention it..

Got so demoralised that Indra,me and Alvin went down to K-Box Cineleisure to sing away those blues..did it help? I don't know. But what I do know is that I shouldn't dwell on it..but it's easier said than done.

It is at this moment in time I really feel alone..the feeling is like a little kid crouching at a dark corner, hugging his knees and sobbing...hoping that someone will comfort him.

How I hope that she can be around at this point of time to comfort me..to motivate this battered soul...

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Sunday, April 16, 2006

Argh..Distracted!!!

[11:41 pm]

Met up with her for dinner last night, for I was kinda stressed up...okok..I missed her ok?..

Anyway, we talked alot, as we did all the time, about family, our aspirations, our fears...actually there's nothing we couldn't talk about..We do have many things in common except that she ain't as adventurous as I am...backpacking, trekking and scuba-diving..

She did tell me alot of things what happened the last time round..which I won't divulge here..and how she is happy that her career is on the upbound...seriously speaking..I am damn proud of her achievements..because I had always believed in her capabilities. Oh did I mentioned that she is going to learn driving?...She got a fair-bit of ribbing from me..that she shouldn't be a menace to other road users...haha

But what caught my attention is her philosophy on love issues. She did say that sometimes when an opportunity pops up, one should always grab it and not let it slip away..and that got me thinking for a while...and THAT'S the SOURCE of my DISTRACTION!!!

Talked to Ah-Bang about it when we were studying just now, and he told me that perhaps I gotta find out where do I stand in her heart...that I am just a good friend/companion/listening boards or someone special? For now I want to concentrate on my exams..but its difficult trying to tear myself from this issue...what should I do?

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Thursday, April 13, 2006

One of these days..

[12:22 am]

I will surely get booked for speeding. These few days have seen me driving at illegal speeds just to reach home after long hours in school.

And by the looks of it, I can never beat the odds. But I am worn-out after such long studying stretches that I would just step on the gas, willing the big jet to propel me home ASAP. Surprisingly, the homeward bound night traffic always seem to be much more friendly, with the overtaking lanes pretty clear most of the time..which makes the journey home faster.

The revision is going smoothly and to date, I have finished revising 2 topics for M461, 1 topic for M463 and almost 1/2 of M459. With luck, I hope to finish up this M459 PE and the second portion of M463 by the end of this week. Then I can throttle up and light up the burners for M461.

My friends have commented that I looked bad, with my dishevelled face, uncombed hair..basically a mad man...which I think it's pretty unacceptable. I have ploughed myself into the schoolwork so much that I have neglected myself..my personal well-being.

As an officer and gentleman, I should take care of myself..if not, how am I supposed to lead the boys and look after them when I can't even look after myself properly?

I think no matter how tough it is, one must never forget how to present oneself in front of the rest, especially in personal grooming. It surely shows alot about oneself if he looks like crap...so tomorrow I gotta look proper and neat..not like a slob.

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Friday, April 07, 2006

The greatest FIGHT begins...

[10:48 pm]

Today, I finally submitted the final draft and 460 assignment. Now I can start studying for the exams...

Next week, I am "going up to the mountain" to hole-up and cram for exams. Typical studying schedule would be from 12+ to 1 am with breaks in between..if not I will sure go mad..

And with the amount of stress going up exponentially, the amount of junk food intake and beer will also increase....all these will make me fatter, which is not good. So an exercise schedule would have to be factored in..I guess most of the time would be blading..at nite i guess..running would be on weekends..

This semester has been a pretty mind-boggling affair...with huge amount of assignments, draft reports, etc...it has practically drained much of my resources..and exams are not here yet!!!

But at least along the way there are still dedicated lecturers who make the effort to conduct revision classes for us, to let us know the important concepts. Kudos to Prof Ooi and Prof Lennie for going the extra mile for us. Prof Ooi put aside his personal time to conduct a revision class for those who bothered and believe me, he is a tutor, not the main lecturers for the course..and he stayed behind to conduct the class till 8 just now..

Goes to show how dedicated a lecturer canbe. Someone who is willing do all these to ensure all the students are well prepared, especially at university level, is definitely commendable.No wonder he took the department's best lecturer of the year 3x..till I guess he got "banned"...I think all lecturers should emulate his efforts..that will make students more willing to learn...for it is always the lecturers that makes the difference..

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Thursday, April 06, 2006

My Sesame Street Character..

[11:55 pm]

Got too stressed up so did this for the fun of it...give it a try!!!True or not..you decide..

http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=4525550649363613939

Here is why are you Kermit the Frog.

You are both somewhat organized. You have a good idea where you put things and you probably keep your place reasonably clean. You aren't totally obsessed with neatness though. Kermit is also reasonably tidy. He'll even dress up for interviews.

You both are sometimes concrete and sometimes abstract thinkers. Kermit spends a lot of his time as a reporter collecting facts, but he is also the author of the dreamy song "The Rainbow Connection." You have a good balance in your life.

You know when to be logical at times, but you also aren't afraid to explore your dreams and desires... within limits of course.You are both extroverts. Kermit gets along with everyone. Sure a few folks annoy him, but that's just because they are annoying.

Kermit likes to meet new people when he does his job as a street reporter. You definitely enjoy the company of others, and you don't have problems meeting new people... in fact you probably look forward to it. You are willing to take charge when necessary or work as part of a team.

Oh, and in case you were wondering, Kermit starred on Sesame Street years before The Muppet Show.

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FYP Draft completed!!!

[1:22 am]

After toiling for 2 days, the editing of the report is finally done!!! Total number of pages? 64 pages...that's an achievement considering the original draft was a total of 52 pages.

This time round, I added in more pictures and edited some of the text in order to re-emphasise the points. I wonder if my boss will be satisfied with this edited draft which I heard will be graded by him and the moderator.

He has not even requested any changes to the original draft and deferred the decision to me instead.Makes me wonder why he pushed us to submit the first draft in the first place when the main purpose is for him to read and come up with the necessary changes.

Anyway, the draft has been completed and now it is currently being printed, courtesy of Jeremy's Brother 3-in-1 printer. Apparently, the print quality is definitely better than that of the Canon inkjet printer and comparable to those laser color printer. I must get myself one of those printer someday..meanwhile, thanks Jeremy!!! I owe you big time!!!

Now that this stuff is completed, I can start my 修道成仙 in peace...that is study for exams in case you "ang-mor elucated" folks don't understand. I have finally planned and printed out my study timetable for the next 3 weeks..so if you fellas miss me so much, just give me a call or pop by the school canteen and find me..that will be base of operations for the next 3 weeks.

After that, it will be FYP presentation, followed by 2 weeks+ sojourn to Europe. The plan initially was to back-pack Italy, France, England and Scotland for 3 weeks, but due to time-constraints brought on by the requirement to return back to active-duty, the trip has been shortened.

This time round, the likely places I would be going would be Italy and France. Spent a week in Italy exploring Rome, Vatican and Ferrari factory..hehe..then a week in France to visit my friend (Jessie, if you are reading this, start getting the red carpet ready..hehe), trawl the LV factory outlet (orders please!!), see Effiel Tower, Arc de Triomphe, Normandy battlegrounds..

Just thinking of this gives me the motivation to go there..so hopefully I will be able to justify my trip there with my hardwork!!

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Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Forget integrity...

[4:49 pm]

when this is our last semester.Take for example the Fluids quiz just now, all of us had a "field day" discussing the questions and helping the weaker ones amongst us. Where's the integrity, you ask?

When you are hell bent of clearing the semster without any hitch, out goes the rule-book and in comes unorthodox measures; measures to ensure all of us get out of this hell-hole together.

Somehow, through the system, you see who are the selfish ones, who are the dependable ones. The selfish ones are those who will keep all the queries regarding the subject to himself/herself while the dependable ones are those who will share the secrets from the lecturer with everyone.

Makes me wonder, what's the use if you get good grades from all those "tips" and is labelled as chickenshit by the rest of the cohort? Shows alot about your character...My kakis and I have always believed in helping one another as kindness begets kindness...you never know when you might need each other's help.

We are all in this together and through teamwork, we will make it, not some indivualistic,shit-for-brains loner. These are the ones who get condemned to eternal hell, get us killed in war, etc..

Now that I have release all these steam, its time to get on with my final draft which is due on the 7th.Till then....

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Sunday, April 02, 2006

I hate it!!!

[10:03 pm]

1) I hate it when those idiotic drivers cut into my lane suddenly without signally.

2)I hate it when those same idiotic drivers road-hog.

3)I hate it when the traffic lights turn red at every junction.

4)I hate it when I take a long time to complete just one tutorial.

5)I hate it when there's alot of things to do and there ain't much time left.

6)I hate it when I seems to take a long time to understand engineering concepts.

Oh..how I hate it!!!!

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