Monday, March 18, 2013

Updates..

[11:21 pm]


As I start counting down to the days whereby I would be leaving the force, I am filled with apprehension and relief.

Apprehension as I would be moving into an environment unknown, for the Organisation has been part of me for the past 10 years. The Organisation has transformed me into a hardened warrior, experienced camaraderie and shown me the meaning of love all over again.

Relief as I have forced myself to move beyond my comfort zone and challenge myself once again. Believe me, it's never easy to move out of your own comfort zone when you know that your future is pretty secured and comfortable if you continue to stay.

These few months will be a hectic one as I balance my obligations to the Organisation while preparing for an exit. Yet one thing has never change; my thoughts of you.

Even though we have kept our distance away from each other, I still miss you deeply. I know this is wrong to harbour such thoughts as you are already back with him. You always have the knack at tugging my heart-strings, no matter what. Whenever I know you are feeling down, I wish I could be there to lend you my shoulders to cry on, to protect you from the woes of the world out there with my hugs.  

Many friends have urged me to move on and that clinging to the past will only restrict the possibilities of the future. Despite the fact that friends have been introducing girls to me, somehow or rather, they have never seemed to match up to your sweetness, kindness and understanding.

Perhaps I am being selfish for you are the best that there ever is and will ever be..
Perhaps I should not cling on to the past and look ahead to the future..
Perhaps I shouldn't have known you at all..



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