Monday, February 27, 2006
I have an attitude problem?
This came from my uni friend when we were on the way home. It stemmed from an earlier conversation a couple of us plus a lady of another friend were having about students being searched while they were leaving the library.
Why?Some gal apparently had her stuff stolen and alerted the campus security. The campus security fellas set up a counter which is similar to what we see at the MRT station and conducted a bag search..causing a long queue to form.
So this gal must have lost something damn valueable, which is a lappy..looking at it, she must have left it unattended...and ta-da..got stolen. I told my friends, she deserved it for leaving it unattended. With the school putting up notices urging students NOT to leave their valueables unattended..and this can still happen.
Typical "Aiyah..won't happen to me" mentality..really sia..many of our fellow-beings have this complacent mentality..happen only, they whine and phine like a drowned pig....so poor gal was crying away..perhaps her FYP report was inside and she never backed-it-up..but my take on this is:TOO BAD.
And my friend can tell me I have an attitude problem..and that's why I won't be able to get any gals..wtf?..because from he observed that the lady was taken aback by my lack of compassion for the poor gal and my condemnation which I felt strongly about.
Oh well..that's just TOO BAD..I AM WHO I AM and I DO NOT NEED to change my opinion on an issue which I feel it's totally stupid in order to attract the opposite sex...
Kaoz..enough of all these rantings..I need to catch some winks..have a quiz tomorrow..
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Sunday, February 26, 2006
Has been thinking about my future career prospects lately. Wondering I should stay in the force all the way or finish my bond and get out of there?
If I stay on in the force, I will be "evicted" by the time I hit the 40's. What am i suppose to do after that? But if I finish my 6 years bond and leave, I must be able to shoulder up to 50% pay-cut. Is the money really an important factor in the whole process?
To a certain extent,yes. By the time my bond is over, if luck is with me, I might be married with kids, paying off the housing loans, car loans and what have you. In order to shoulder that amount of pay-cut, there must be something substantial for me to fall back on. My parents are advising me to stay in based on these projections and I tend to agree with them.
However, the prospects of staying for life in the force does strike me as a good choice. Even though my interest is in military stuff, it doesn't mean I should pursue it at the expense of my passion:Flying.
As I have said before, flying has been a dream of mine ever since young. To be able to fly a plane means alot to me. If I never try, I will never know. Hence, I would like to give it a try and even if I don't make the grade, at least I knew I tried.
So yah..meanwhile I want to give it a try.
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Friday, February 24, 2006
Term Break?What term break?
Term break has came and gone in a flash. I have practically spent the term break trying to catch up on the lectures, doing the darn M460 assignment, clearing the backlog of tutorials and giving birth to the FYP report.
So much so that I didn't have time to do some running..damned!!!..must do it tomorrow...can't feel at ease without running at least 5km and letting out all those steam!!!
And yes, I attended Asian Aerospace 2006 with my friends on a trade visitor pass...for free..hahaha!!!Seems like it's getting worse every year without the aerobatic flying teams like RAF's Red Arrows or our own Black Knights. The best aerial display was by the A380..it's was pretty interesting seeing a big passenger jet lumbering through the sky at excruciating slow speeds...the best thing was; it's so quiet!!!!
That is; if you compare to the current passenger jets flying in the skies today. Furthermore, I managed to gain some knowledge in the current weapon systems in the market today..will sure help in my career when I go back into the force. Saw some of my colleagues and senior officers and caught up with them in the latest developments in the force..won't say anything here 'cos it's all hush hush..hehe..
Other than that..term break was just like this..revising, clearing tutorials, trying to understand what's going on and giving birth to the FYP report..before I go, let me post up some pics I took from AA2006.Cheers!!
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Monday, February 20, 2006
kind of lost lately.
A feeling of emptiness seems to have taken up residence in my life. Even though I am surrounded by many friends who care for me, somehow or rather, I would feel there's this emptiness.
Somehow it's difficult to relate this feeling of emptiness to my friends..only those who are closest to me will know how I feel. My uni friends have resolved to help me by introducing their gal friends to me, which I have said in my previous postings.
I had thanked and turn down their help.Perhaps to those of you who are reading my post thinks that I am being picky..but I am looking for a soul mate, someone I have an affinity to..someone who I can relate to..not just any Mary, Jane or Laura.
A friend once told me, that the difference between a soul mate and that of a galfriend can be explained using the concept of a handphone; When a chic-looking handphone is launched onto the market, people will flock to own it, to flaunt it to the rest of the world. But after a while, it's functionality will come into play.It's ease of use will determine whether it makes or breaks the phone.
The point is, I am more of those interested in the functionality of the phone..not those of the chic-looking kind. I guess it's the way they look at the world which attracts me. Their forever quest for an answer in the world is what I find intriguing. That's because for me, I am also constantly looking for an answer and I hoped that together, we can discover the answers.
That's why I am on the lookout for someone like this who is as lonely as I am and discover our answers together.
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006
V-day, the day where the guys do their best to pamper their gals and gals dressed to their nines for their guys. Everywhere you go, couples will be holding hands with the gal clutching a bouquet of flowers,acting love-dovey..duh..
To me, V-day is just a day where merchants just try to cash in at everybody's expense...flowers get chopped from the fields and are wrapped for your precious ones,only to die a few days later.It's also the day when guys get stressed out.
To a guy, it's like planning for a military operation; nothing should go wrong..order flowers and have it delivered to their gal, reservations at a restaurant to ensure that his other half have to go hungry while waiting for god-knows-how-long in the queue just to eat.
And if there's a hiccup in the planning, guy turns from hero to zero. He will have to endure couple of days of silent-treatment, occasional referral of the issue when they argue, etc. Oh well, in the end, guys just have to do it to ensure his other half is happy.
How about those single ones like us? Just chill out, enjoy looking at beautiful girls and stressed-out guys trying to placate their other half. And oh ya, if I have the chance, I would rather fly my other half to see fields and fields of flowers rather than giving her a pathetic bouquet of flowers which will die some days later.
Happy V-day!!!
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Sunday, February 12, 2006
Soul mate..do they really exist?
I was reading a novel from Richard Bach and came upon the term soul mate..which made me wonder..do they really exist?
The defination of soul mate which I got from the dictionary is:"One of two persons compatible with each other in disposition, point of view, or sensitivity.someone for whom you have a deep affinity" Sounds complicated?
I don't think so.Reading this novel has provided me with some answers to who I really am, what I really want from my life.For all the mistakes and choices I had made in my life,I have held to my inner sense of right, my inner ethnics. All these, when the going gets dangerous and tough or when people frowned on it.
I guess it's this strangeness that sets me apart..which makes me lonely.It is said that when lonely souls meet each other, it allows them to live to their highest love and reach a life together that's so wonderful one can't imagine it apart.
For me, I believe that there's someone else in the world that is as alone as I am , that I will find her someday, love her and not be alone anymore. Soul mates have an affinity for each other and are born to spend their lives together. He/She can be around you and I think I should open my eyes a tad wider to look around.
Oh darn it, what am I doing? I should be revising for the upcoming heat transfer quiz and not have any thoughts on soul mates. But i just don't have the mood to do any revision..arggghhh.....concentrate!!!!..darn it...
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was kinda quiet affair. We had a bbq at ECP and talked the night away. Even though some our classmates are back in their homeland to celebrate CNY, it was still good to meet up with them after all these years.
Now, don't expect a typical polytechnic class to be that of a lecture-class sized population that we find in uni.Our poly class was small with an average of 20 students per class and 2 classes per lecture group.
That made us very close with another and we had plenty of fun during our poly days. Amongst us, there are those who are government-employed, working in MNCs and some of us who are still studying.It is good that all of us are doing well one way or the other and for 2 of them, romance has even blossomed!!
As most of us have or are currently studying in the local uni, there comes a time when we compared our poly education to that of a uni one. All of us came to this conclusion that while poly gave us a skill to survive in the working world, all uni did was to bore us with the theoretical details.
Not a bad idea if your aim is to be a scientist or researcher,but a lousy one if you are going to work as an engineer. Why do we have to learn the derivation of all these engineering formulas when we don't even know how to apply it practically? There ain't much hands-on practical where we can really apply what we learnt in class.
But one thing good about uni is that it taught us to be more analytical and more systematic in our day-to-day lives.Other than that, it was pretty much useless. I still have to say that whatever I have learnt in poly is still much useful than that of uni.
And yes, those bloody uni-mates of mine who happened to be my classmates just have to spread the word about how "concerned" they are of my love life and how they had to introduce gals to me!!! Duh!!!
Love wise, I think it takes time...fate just have to be at the right place and at the right time in order for things to work...and it happens to be that I have not seen "bus-stop" gal for a while. Them buggers are telling me to get a bouquet of roses and a box of chocolates and stake out at the bus-stop on V-day!!!...that will definitely scare the gal off sia...
Oh well...hopefully the opportunity will come where I can see her again..
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Saturday, February 11, 2006
The things I learnt from Ah-Gong
1) Know when to stop when you are gambling.
The problem with most people is that people are greedy. When they have won, they don't have the discipline to stop...instead, they push their luck too far. And when they lose, the stakes becomes higher in order to recoup back the losses.Self-discipline is important when you gamble.
2)Don't do anything foolish which jeopardises family relationships.
Ah-Gong was one hell of a gangster in the old days. He participated in the '60s bus riots, took drugs and got thrown into the jail. I think he regretted doing all these stuff which affected the family alot when my mom and her siblings were growing up.
That's why, through his eyes i can see a tinge of sadness when one of his kid don't want to have anything to do with him, when another of his kid is compulsive gambler, when grandma passed away..even though they argued alot, I can Ah-Gong really loved her..something we don't see in our generation anymore.
I think it is because of all these episodes which is playing in front of me makes me realise that kin-ship is important in whatever choices we make in our lives. Whatever we do, we have to put the interests of our family first and not ours.It is a choice .
That's why I gave my life to my family and became the person I am right now..but sometimes I wonder..was it worth it?...that I could have gone to Australia to study but I didn't? that I could have been more serious with Sharon and not dragged things for so long till there is no end in sight?that till now I couldn't bring myself to walk up to "bus-stop" gal for fear of being distracted in my studies and regretting later?
I don't know whether it is worth it....
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Thursday, February 09, 2006
Well...basically this summarises my day. Let me elaborate more;
Woke up at 0845 and got into an "oh shit!!" mode immediately. That's because I my class starts at 0930. Did a quick wash-up and drove at illegal speed to school. Only upon reaching the tutorial room did I notice something amiss...the tutor seems different and that it doesn't seems to be fluid tutorial...after going throught the timetable did I realise that it is on 1130!!!!....*slaps head*
The rest of the day was uneventful UNTIL....good old mr pang called me saying that my love interest was at the bus-stop and to hurry up as she is going to board the bus.Naturally, I shouldered my bag and started heading towards the bus-stop...before realising I DROVE to school today...arghhh.....how coincidental can it get sia?
What a lousy day..hope tomorrow will be a better one...
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Monday, February 06, 2006
the tremendous amount of work that is coming in. Let's use a stress index to tally it up;
Using a scale of 1 - 5 with 1 being less stressful and 5 being most stressful;
M460: Assignment is due on the 13th Mar..Luckily I have a sample report and plus we have split up the stress modelling..so it should be ok.But the worrisome part is in the study portion...I know nuts about this module so far (5)
M461: I am struggling to clear the tutorial backlogs and now there's a group assignment coming up...the best part is that it is due 13th Mar. The concepts take some time to digest through constant reading of the textbook...and time is running out..the quiz is next week..(5)
M463: At least I managed to understand what the hell is going on with this subject. With a good tutor and constant revision, I am starting to see the concepts.Whewz..(3)
MP2006: Now, this is the maths which I am attempting for the 3rd time. I still don't understand why I could had failed this paper the last time round. I have not been touching on this subject for a while. I should be starting on it during the term break. This time round, I am going to pass this paper.(5)
M455, M459 & M144: Both my prescribed electives and law..it should be ok with constant revision..I hope I can ace my PEs if possible..*cross fingers* (2 each)
FYP: My constant pain-in-the-neck. There haven't been any progress since I last talked to my professor. The software vendor seems to be pretty tied up with training of its clients. I hope some fine diplomacy can convince them to provide a short training session. (5)
Now..let me tally the score...I scored a 29 out of a possible 40. I think I am almost hitting the high side. There's just too many things to do and too little time. Now I really know why people are saying 24 hrs a day is not enough..or perhaps I should have a better time-managment program.
Oh well..time to rest..till then..cheerios!!!
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Sunday, February 05, 2006
You are Beautiful - James Blunt
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.T
here must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,I will never be with you.
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Friday, February 03, 2006
Notice some interesting stuff when I was taking the train home. Upon boarding the train, most people will look for an empty seat..and when they have found one, they will seat down and...tada...whip out their mobiles and start SMSing away..
Some of the passengers, mostly youngsters, will cluster-f*** near the entrance and block it when others are trying to squeeze to the much-more empty center of carriage. Wonder why they are so selfish...scared that they can't get off the train?hmmmzz....come on, all of us are tired after a day of hard work or school and all we want to do is to go home,have dinner and rest..so,be more civic-minded abit, move to the center of the train lah..
Oh hell, I am just feeling grumpy after being in school till 6+ in the evening on a FRIDAY!!! All are make-up classes for the public hols that the classes happen to fall in. It's the weekend and what the hell am I doing in school till so late? I should be home by the evening, out an hour or so later nursing a nice-cold beer somewhere out there..
And now because of all these make-up classes, by the time I reached home, I don't even feel like going for that beer no more..well, on the hind-sight, I can save the money..sometimes you just can't have it all can we?
I am feeling kinda lethargic these few days, going home after classes when I should be staying in school to do some revision. My studies are starting to lag behind and there has been no progress on the FYP front..seems like the vendor is tied down and can't provide a short hands-on session for me..guess I have to do some arm-twisting to get things going...argggggghhhh!!!!
Enough of all these rantings, I need to release some steam..time to go blading..
Till then..cheerios!!!
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