Thursday, August 13, 2009
If things had worked out..
Just came back from a chill-out session with J.
While over drinks we were chatting about various topics such as travel plans, bgr stuff, etc.
Perhaps I had a drop too many, but I told her that sometimes I do ponder what would had happened if things had worked out between us back then. She mentioned that if things did work out, we would had been married and maybe with a kid or two by now.
Oh well, in the end, things didn't turn out as we wished it had been. But I did mention to her that as things between SS and me wasn't concrete yet (yes, she knows about SS and me), I am keeping all my options open. Well, at the end of the day, I will see where fate leads me to.
If its meant to be yours, it will be yours.Labels: Matters of the heart
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Monday, August 10, 2009
I am going Maldives with SS on a diving trip. Well, it was a surprise to me initially there wasn't any slots available. Then yesterday, she called me up and asked whether I was still interested as there was a slot available.
Without any thoughts, I told her I was good for the trip and booked the air ticket while she helped me settle the payment first.
So I guess this trip will be a litmus test of how she feels about me. So hopefully things will work out.
=)Labels: Matters of the heart
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Friday, August 07, 2009
A surprise that wasn't meant to be..
SS finally came back from her weeklong trip.
I wanted to pick her up from the airport, but alas being on standby prevented me from doing that. Even though she has indicated that I shouldn't do it, I felt that I should be there to pick her up. So what to do..but to kiss another opportunity goodbye.
I tried to make it good by packing her favourite food again and driving it down to her house and passing it to her. But after 15 mins of waiting (after calling and texting her), I figured that she must had fallen asleep after her long flight and left. (She text'd me in the morning saying she just saw my miss call and message)
While I didn't get to see her again, at least now she knows the intention.
Well, guess its another missed opportunity.Labels: Matters of the heart
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Wednesday, August 05, 2009
Just noticed that one month has passed since I last posted.
Well, I have to apologise for the lack of updates for due to my busy work schedule, I have practically neglected this space.
Ok lets see what has transpired since my last post...
1. I got promoted in grade and also assumed a higher appointment (deputy section head). This appointment came as a shock to me as there are people who are more senior and more capable than me who should take this appointment. I felt guilty about this as I may have upset my peers and seniors who have been eyeing for this post. I spoke to the management about it and they said that they put me on the job because they felt I was ready for it. Oh well, since they had the faith in me, I guessed I shouldn't let them down.
2. I am involved in the Nation's birthday for next year. The team for this year is largely the same, except the chief has changed. It is a challenging job for us, the seasoned guys, as the new chief is inexperienced, and the way he works is reactive and not proactive. In addition, it doesn't help that he don't have the human touch, he has already offended some people whom we will be working with. So much so we have to do damage control to repair the frayed relations. What a way to start NDP..haiz..
3. SS and me. I think this is something that everyone is so anxious to know. Well, like me, she's been busy with work, so much so that we seldom have chance to chat online. But it doesn't mean I ain't doing anything about it. I used the office email to "chat" with her...giving her moral support when I know she is feeling down. And just when I thought the opportunity has presented myself to let her know how I feel, I just have to screw it up big time. Well, when she told me that she was flying overseas for work last Friday (we were supposed to meet for her favourite food that night), I decided to give her surprise. You see, I wanted to pack her favourite food and bring it to the airport so she can eat it in the transit area while waiting for her flight. But alas, when I called her upon reaching the airport, she has already checked in.
She was indeed surprised that I went to airport to send her off..but she did not know that I packed her favourite food. She did mention that it I shouldn't had come. But by coming to send her off, I think she must have felt that I am serious about her. And when I offered to fetch her from the airport tomorrow, she mentioned again that I shouldn't do it. Now I feel abit dis-heartened. I am not sure whether this a form of subtle rejection or whatsoever. Now I need some faith to guide me through this difficult journey.
Now, that pretty sums up my update for this month. I will promise to update more often when I have the time. Till then, stay tune.
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