Monday, October 27, 2008
Next year will be a year of constant travelling, with an overseas trip at least every quarter. But at least it will be a break for me, away from all the fire in the office. Now, lets see where I would be going;
Febuary - Israel
I have promised to go down to the seaside resort of Eilat. If I can't go down to Eilat, maybe I will tour whichever country that I am transiting at..so it may be Turkey or Germany. At least a 5 days extension would be enough.
March - Pulau Redang
A standard 4 days 3 nights diving trip to maintain my currency. I will be going with a bunch of diving buddies plus a couple of ladies, who sad to say, won't be able to join us in our underwater conquests. Oh well..
April/May - New Zealand
This is a best time to make use of the long weekends to complete the circuit of New Zealand which I started out in 2006. But this time round, it will be at South Island only. I still miss driving on the long stretch of road, stopping at those small-town bakeries to buy meat pies and coffee. And, of course, the scent of the freshly-baked bread.
June - Canada
This is a land of the maple leaves and grizzly bears. I have expressed interest to boss to let me go there for the last time I have been on overseas training was two years ago. Hopefully, he will let me go.
June - Maldives
This is one of my to-dive spot and now I have finally found someone to go with. With S, I hope. Remember my last post? Well, if nothing goes wrong, I hope that we can dive together and slowly work out some romance during our stay there.
Sounds fun? But all these needs money. And that's where all my bonuses will go to. Haiz..seems like my new camera lens and struct-bars for the car will have to wait for a while longer..Labels: Trips
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Sunday, October 19, 2008
after a few days of afternoon showers, scorching sun, trees, hills and wild boars accompanying me, I am back in civilisation.
A long and hot shower to wash away all those sweat and grime accumulated over the past few days was the order of the day upon reaching home. Following which, a long and deep sleep on my bed (read: I slept on the ground, on the benches of a shed, in my vehicle for the past few nights).
I woke up to a surprising message from someone special; S. She wanted to learn diving after coming back from a working trip to the Maldives and asked me some questions regards to it. Seems like there is another convert to the beautiful undersea world. And the best thing? She said that we can go diving together next time.
Even if she is paying lip service to me, I thought that it is a good start. You know what's the worse thing? She still can't swim..now that's a potential problem from achieving the above-mentioned goal.
She ain't flying this few days, so it's time to meet up with her, provided she wants to do so.
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Sunday, October 12, 2008
Is life still beautiful after all?
It has been a hectic week with almost all of my energy being expended on my new trainees plus preparations for an extended training next week.
But through these all, I still managed to squeeze out some time to go on a date at Wine Company with two fabulous girls. (read: FY, for that, you owe me a treat..haha). That to me, is a perfect way to celebrate a beautiful life. Another description of my beautiful life for me would be to stroll along the beach, hand-in-hand with my beautiful wife and a couple of kids running in front of me. But this incident set me thinking about the perception of a beautiful life.
A very good friend of mine from secondary school days told me that he recently signed a separation paper with his wife; which was a shocking piece of news. The reason for their separation? They have lost the loving feeling. I mean, they were such a loving couple and to come to such decision must not have been easy. And no, there wasn't any third party involved.
He revealed in that in his pursue of perfection in everything he do, he made many sacrifices, including time with friends and family..to the extent of spending time with his wife. And now, 9 years later, his whole life is in a complete mess. For the past month, he has been hitting the bottle as he tried to come to terms with this separation, so much so he also committed suicide. He would had died if not for timely intervention by his sister.
To us who are not married, you may think that suicide is the most stupid thing one can resort to, but bear in mind, it takes a lot for both party to want to spend the rest of their life and to build a family together, hence if the marriage fails, one will feel a sense of failure. Mind you, S also nearly ended her life too when her marriage failed few years ago.
The fact that society does not tolerate failure and that the male is always the sinned one in a failed marriage was what upset him the most. For someone who is such a perfectionist to feel that sense of failure was quite a blow to him.
And more often than not, they will have a stigma of falling in love once more for fear of being hurt again. It takes a long time for the emotional wounds to heal and even when they do heal, the scars will still be there. It is through time and unrequited love will they have the confidence to love again.
It is through my closest friend's failed marriage that I finally understand how much S went through and her decision in not getting into any relationship with me 2 years ago. It is that stigma of being hurt again that caused her to make that decision.
We are always scared of failing, for our society cannot accept the fact that we have failed. But don't they understand that it is through failures that we learnt? Edison failed many times before he finally invented the light bulb. Imagine that if the society has chatised him for his failures, we would still be using kersosene lamps and candles.
It is through failure that we build character, and that is something that our society should embrace. In my 27 years of living on this planet, I have failed countless times, be it in my academic work, professional work or my relationships. But I have never given a damn about what others say, for every time I failed, I learnt from my mistakes and became a bettter person.
I always tell myself, that for life to remain beautiful, you have to work on it using both of your hands. And that is something I need to convince my good friend and give S the confidence to love again.Labels: Random Thots
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Thursday, October 09, 2008
I cannot love you for fear of going back on my promise of not waiting for her.
But you are the type of girl that I am looking for..one who we can do things together with..
But, I cannot love you..and I think you only treat me as a friend only..Labels: Matters of the heart
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Saturday, October 04, 2008
The memories of you seems to be fading..there are days that I can't seem to remember your face..those beautiful features of yours..
I am scared that one fine day, I will wake up and won't be able to remember who you are..and even worse, mistake you for someone else..Labels: Matters of the heart
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