Tuesday, March 25, 2008
“You must have missed me lots”, she said as she snuggled against me. As I held her in my arms, smelling her cropped hair and planting kisses on her forehead, I replied, “Yah babe, I have missed you everyday.”
We held on to each other and whispered sweet nothings into each other ears, punctuated by plenty of smooches...
“BRRRIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGG!!!!”
The shrill of the two alarm clocks brought me back to reality..time to wash up and prepare for work…
Guess the boys up there must have read my entry last night. While it was a short dream, but it was good while it lasted :)Labels: Matters of the heart
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Monday, March 24, 2008
Just another update to my life..
I was told that I have not been updating blog regularly. Well, as I explained to him earlier, I write when I am in the mood, when I feel like letting something out.
Actually many things running through my mind as I write this; that of relationship and work.
For work, it's never ending, especially with the fiscal year closing, there are lots of data collation to be done and doing a 2-year projection. Even though I would be transferred out of my current department by the end of this week (if nothing goes wrong), I still have plenty of work left uncleared. I guess even if I am transferred out, the work will go with me. Hopefully the new boss will understand.
As for love, while I appreciate the care and concern that my friends have given me by their keen introduction of their female colleagues, I do have to highlight it does take time for a relationship to grow. I am looking for someone who is like her, which I have to admit, doesn't exist at all as no one is alike. But it takes alot to be able to move on, I have waited for so long, so it doesn't matter if I keep on waiting. Short of buying a ring, I have done whatever I can.
I email her every week to "talk" to her per-say, as it can be difficult to go out or communicate with her due to our different schedule. While I am always willing to accomodate to her schedule, it takes two hands to clap. Am I frustrated? No I am not. Nor am I resigned at all. I know it takes time for someone who has lost faith in love to love again. I want to give her faith to love again, to brighten her world again.
But I also fear that I may not be up to the task, that one day I will fail myself. Fear, a scary word, to write here. But I am going to keep trying...
She's on my mind before I go to bed at night.
She's on my mind when I wander away from my work.
She's on my mind when I am out there alone.
She's on my mind when I need someone to be there.
She's on my mind when I want to share my joy with.
初恋就像一碟普通的蛋炒饭，看似简单，却最难忘.Labels: Matters of the heart
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Monday, March 17, 2008
3 weekends burnt in the span of 2 months, working till late, having late dinners, is that how the organisation encourage work-life balance?
The only thing that I can only look forward to now is always the pay-day and of course, the bonus. That's the only bright spot in the past few months. It's times like this that I can really use a hug. My colleagues have their wives and girlfriends to turn to when they are stressed out..for me, it's always a lonely journey to no-where.
It doesn't help when she doesn't reply to any of my mails. Is it really time to move on? Will the introduction of another person into my life by my friends make me forget her? What will happen if one day we work together?
Questions which I have no more answers to..Labels: Random Thots
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Monday, March 03, 2008
by all the work that is being heaped on me. With 1 month to go before I am due to be transferred out, you are supposed to finish up on all the work-on-hand. You are not supposed to be given additional work, right?
Alas, this is not a fact when your department is short-handed. When the rest of them are out-stationed, you are supposed to cover their duties on top of your current work. So, can anyone tell me how are you suppose to cover 3 persons worth of job?
Easy, you have to prioritise whatever work you have on hand, take on the more urgent tasks and fight off the bushfires as they spring up.
That's what I have been doing for the past week, working a full 6 day week, without any rest. The downside? You don't have time to yourself, your life revolves around the work, your family is giving you a red card, you are feel burnt out. The good thing? Your boss knows you are max'd out and stops pestering you. Your boss sees you coming to work earlier and leaving later than him, which translates to good appraisal and in turn, good performance bonuses..
Seriously, I am telling myself, if I don't get that scale upgrade next year, I am going to accelerate my career transition plan. Sometimes it is times like this that you really wish that there's someone where you can hug all those stresses and worries away, someone to tell you that everything will be fine. (On a side-note, I am starting to write to her every week. Even though I don't see her that often now, doesn't mean I can't text or write her right? Even she doesn't read those mails, at least I knew I did my part)
At least there's some sort of silver lining in the cloud; I have taken delivery of my new "horse" last saturday. I am still getting use to the ride and I have fitted her with new and larger shoes today. The next thing she will be getting is a set of new reinforcement straps to improve her handling.
With this beautiful horse, it won't send the wrong signal out to all the princesses out there like the elephant.Labels: Grumblings
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Sunday, March 02, 2008
For you, a thousand times over..
He broke your heart
He took your soul
You're hurt inside
'Cause there's a hole
You need some time to be alone
Then you will find what you've always known
I'm the one who really love you baby
I've been knocking at your door
And as long as I'm living, I'll be waiting
As long as I'm breathing, I'll be there
Whenever you call me, I'll be waiting
Whenever you need me, I'll be there
I've seen you crying into the night
I feel your pain, can I make it right?
I realize there's no end in sight
Yet still I wait for you to see the light
I'm the one who really loves you, baby
I can't take it anymore
And as long as I'm living, I'll be waiting
As long as I'm breathing, I'll be there
Whenever you call me, I'll be waiting
Whenever you need me, I'll be there
You are the only one I've ever known that makes me feel this way
I want to be with you until we're old
You've got the love you need right in front of you, please come homeLabels: Matters of the heart
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