Monday, August 27, 2007
Just came back from a visit to the hospital where a colleague was warded for a suspected colon problem. Apparently he had been having blood in his faeces since last week and it culminated in a bloody discharge on the throne.
I shan't elaborate further in order not to digress from the topic. In short, in the midst of it all, he was still trying to get the humongous amount of work completed before he reported sick. Man, to see him with tubes poking out of a devil-may-care and cussing guy like him was really heart-wrenching. His wife was asking me, do we really work that late? How do you want me to answer her?
In another case, my buddy from cadet days was warded a couple of months ago for chest pains. Apparently the humongous among of work did him in too. When he was discharged, he went for a long holiday to take it easy..at least he is better now..
Within a span of 6 years, I have seen too many of these things, which I won't divulge further, but all of it can make someone question about his worth in any organisation. While we are part of the piece in the overall jigsaw puzzle, are our efforts being realised?
Now again, I am asking myself for the umpteen time; "Is it worth it?" Life is so fragile nowadays and with a close-knit organisation like ours, when someone gets warded due to work, it hits everyone badly. I don't want to come to the point where I end up like both of my colleagues. While I admit I have a bright future ahead of me, I don't want to come to the point where I neglect my family and loved ones for the sake of work.
And I don't want my family or girlfriend/wife asking the same question which my colleague's did. How the hell is anyone going to answer that? Am I starting to lose faith in the organisation?Labels: Random Thots
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Friday, August 24, 2007
Stress-Reliever with Chris
Its been a long and busy week, hence my date with Chris yesterday was a sort of stress-reliever for me. I have always enjoyed talking and going out with her..I think we can click extremely well..and we will always go shopping after dinner to wait out the 2200 time limit where our favourite dessert outlet; Menotti, has the 1/2 price offer for all its cakes.
Going shopping for clothes with gals is not as traumatising as one would think..I enjoy shopping with Chris..hunting for her clothes and she trying them out and asking for my opinion before she buys them. I am always amazed by the way she can zoom into cheap "on sale" signage..maybe thats why women have sharper eyes than guys..haha..I am also amazed how detailed she is when she buys her clothes..she will check all the stitching to ensure that it is in good condition before buying it..compared to me who is more of the walk-into-store-take-try-buy types. I think this is something I can really learn from her; to be more detailed.
As usual, we went to our dessert haunt to try out different desserts...and the quirky side of her is this; she likes to take a photo of the dessert she has ordered before devouring them. I always like that blissful look on her face when she devours them up...that image is something that will stay with me..something which will make all those work stress go away.
And to end it all..I got her something that she has wanted since her uni-days as her belated birthday present...and she was surprised!!..hehe..as long as she is happy, that's enough for me..
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Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Hopefully this blog won't be a rendition of the famous book, The Train Man..haha..for it seems that alot of my friends are worried that this eligible bachelor is STILL single..
Well, another date with Chris today..or well, yesterday, since its like 1 am in the morning. Did the normal stuff, dinner and shopping, things like that. Had plenty of talk around our life, friends..etc..one thing I noticed about her, coming from a well-to-do family, she is not your pampered and the-money-grows-on-the-trees type of gal..instead, she is your thrifty and very humble gal...which was what attracted me in the first place.
We can talk about anything under the sun, ok, moon in this case..so our conversation naturally drifted to BGR when we were having a drink. Seems like there's a competitor in the house..a super rich Indon-born lawyer who recently broke up with the girlfriend few months ago, same as her..so they are dating casually..a Type A guy here..one who works extremely hard but doesn't have any time for gal type of guy; someone who will use the cash option..
She did commented that gals will typically fall this type of Type A guy only to regret later as this type of guys are prone to affairs. She did admitted that while she just can't click with the guy, the heart do flutter when he brings her to those pricey place and will never let her foot the bill; exercising the cash option..in addition, what she doesn't like is that the guy is too quiet..
As for me, she did commented that I am a nice fellow, aka Type B; guys who are not rich, but are super nice..typical stuff that gals will do when you are labelled as a friend..but a good personality is only half of the equation..sometimes you must also flex the financial muscle in order to woo a gal. Even our mutual friend has cautioned her that Type A guys are nono..whereas Type B guys are the best...but if I read her correctly, she is subtlely hinting that I might stand a chance if I try harder..
Ok..now let me check out what to get for her belated birthday...hmmzz..Labels: Matters of the heart
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Monday, August 13, 2007
This is going to be an extreme post. Forgive me if I sound frustrated..but I am!!!!!
Why am I tasked with something which the higher management is supposed to run? An event which is supposed to be organised and run at the higher level was thrust onto my lap for no reason at all. Even though I have voiced my concerns to the board and Big Boss, it was still stuffed down my throat by him. While the members of the board agrees with my concerns, they are still tied by the fact that Big Boss had given the edict.
I feel super helpless when demands from both organisations are sandwiching me and I can't meet them; its just like I am thrown into the wild with the wolves out there circling around me, ready to devour me.
On the other hand, within the organisation, we are so focused on the conduct of a certain event that we are losing the overview of our key business. And it doesn't help when one of the colleague likes falling sick, the other one is going for some dumb-fucked course during this crucial period and boss is too engrossed in the conduct of the event. It doesn't help much when Big Boss is passionate about our organisation, constantly coming up with creative yet sometimes impractical ideas for the organisation, creating additional workload for an already maxed-out staff.
Talk about creating capacity and cutting down un-necessary work...how can an organisation create capacity when you are taking on the un-necessary work?
Arggggggghhhhhh!!!!Labels: Grumblings
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Sunday, August 05, 2007
To you, Chris!!!
Like you will see this..haha..but I have wished you over the phone..before you were thrown into the sea by your friends..Labels: Matters of the heart
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Wednesday, August 01, 2007
For the third time that is. This is not doing justice to my morale. Sometimes I wonder why..if I think along the bright side, it's because I am indispensable to the organisation.
But on the flip side of the coin, it seems like I am being held back to do boss's stuff because of the fact that he is retiring next year. So while he is attending courses to prepare himself for his retirement, its the subordinates like muah who are suffering. It just reminded me of what my ex-colleague told me about boss the other time; that boss likes to "distribute" his work to his subordinates to do, and if shit hits the fan, he would be absolved of all responsibilities. Sounds bad?
Yah, and because of that, my internal posting has been delayed 3 times. My enthusiasm for the work has now waned to such a level that I am just doing whatever that's necessary.. Even the upgrading course which I was supposed to attend was delayed previously. So now I have made a stand to my boss that if I do not attend this course, my promotion would be affected. So he had no choice but to release me for this course.
So bottom line, I feel so shitty..when will I get to see the light?Labels: Grumblings
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