Finding myself in the lost world..

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

So different yet so similar..

[8:27 pm]

All of us may be of different age, seniority and having different job scopes, but our dream is the same: To soar into wild blue yonder and thread our way through the clouds..

What's so special about being wrapped in a sardine can made of sheet metal that makes every grown-up guy feel like a kid again?

Perhaps it is the flying movies which we have grown up with..Top Gun, Flyboys, etc..one that make flying looks an adventure..one that beats the boredom of sitting in the office, the adrenaline rush that comes with it..yes, perhaps thats the reason..

All of us wanted to be pilots initially, but somehow along the way, high-velocity crosswinds blew us away from our intended path...forcing us to make an emergency landing at the worn runway and at the wrong airport. We await the day that we can take off from this runway and soar into the clouds. The day will come..

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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Find Me

[11:56 pm]

Looking for the answers,
trying to find the reasons
But, only more questions I find.
Like the stars in the sky
my soul... lost in thousands
Can you help me find mine.
I don't know the distant
or are there any limitations,
How long will I survive.
Someone, please, find me
bring me back to life
Capture my soul...
then search for my heart'

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Sunday, March 25, 2007

"Why do a nice guy like you don't have a girlfriend?"

[2:38 pm]

...attended the church wedding of my secondary school friend yesterday. And, as I said, he is the most eligible bachelor in all of our eyes, guys and gals included. I can tell you, if he can even earn all us guys' respect over the way he uphold himself and the way he treats other people, you can say he's an epitome of an officer and gentleman .

His wedding was a mini secondary school and our officer course (we happen to be from the same course) reunion of some sorts. There was joy and laughter as we reminisce about our school days.

The wedding served as an appetiser for the fun ahead as some of us went down to Bala for some drinks and catch-up. Hell, we started drinking from 6+ onwards till almost 10..haha..there was alot of heart-felt conversations and light teasing. And yours truly was questioned by my classmates; "eh, why you are you not attached? you are such a nice guy, etc..."

Erm, its not that I don't want to have a girlfriend, it just that I can't seem to find one who I can really communicate extremely well with. I am looking for that special SOMEONE..

Someone who can anchor me in reality and clue me in when I am overlooking important facts and clues, for my head can be in the clouds and careless at times..

Someone who is pragmatic and astute, alert to the world's perils and possibilities, someone who will keep me on my toes.

And when I do fall in love, I do so with my heart open, my idealistic romantic notions bared and vulnerable; it wouldn't feel like love to me if I feel insecure in a relationship.There used to be one, but it didn't work out at all..and till now I still searching for the ONE.

I am humbled that gals compliment me for being a nice guy, but sometimes you just have to admit that being nice is not enough..you got to have the x-factor to attract the gals, which I don't have..does having chest hair count as part of x-factor?

Perhaps its the attitude that I have adopted after her..I have started to feel that it can't be rushed anymore..that I rather let fate take its course..if someone who can shower me with attention and take care of me, she will get the same loving affection from me..

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Thursday, March 22, 2007

My hall-staying days..

[9:01 pm]

If you ask me whether I enjoyed my one year staying in the Hall, I would tell you that it was one of my best. Even though me and my room-mate pretty kept to ourselves, we enjoyed the freedom...

of being able to afford the luxury of sleeping and waking up late...

of being able to drink my Jack Daniels/beer/whatever alcohol I could lay my hands on and my friend smoking his life away as we do our tutorials...

of being able to go for late night jogs and suppers...it made me fitter as I could de-stress anytime by going for long runs around the campus, followed by a sumptous supper at Boon Lay market...

of replenishing our stocks of tidbits, bread, instant noodles, toiletries from the supermarket..

...but my regrets were...

I missed my Mom's cooking...it made me realise that home-cooked food is always better than the food outside..makes you more appreciative of such little things..

I kept to myself too much..I could had make more friends, and who knows, even meet a potential life-partner by joining the hall activities..

Well..that's was my life living in the hall...

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Sunday, March 18, 2007

The storm has abated..

[1:19 pm]

for a while..that is. After spending practically half of the week holed up in the office rushing through the briefing slides for Big Boss, colleague and me took a breather by leaving for home early for the rest of the week.

Big Boss was appreciative of the work we put in and gave us a pep talk the following day. It is seldom that a highly-ranked superior would talk to junior fellows like us and seriously, it meant alot to us. I guess I have been pretty blessed to have such good bosses to guide and mentor me along the way so far. I have learnt many new things over the period of nine months in this branch since I graduated and even though the road ahead is still long, I do know what and where I want to be in the next couple of years before I leave.

To celebrate a mission-accomplished, I went down to re-visit Zouk, an old haunt from my younger years to see what has changed. Well, for starters, you know you can't party as much as you were when you are younger when; your ears hurt form the thumping music, you are suffering from a mild headache the following day. I figure now I have migrated from the partying scene to the sit down-chill out routine where I can really enjoy some good drinks. Leaving the partying scene is good, it just tell you that another phase of your life has begun.

I guess when you reach a certain age, you know that you are just grow out of many things that you used to do. Just look at my uni friends and me, most of us are contemplating to go to the Zoo for god's sake!! And most of my friends at my age are settling down with their other half or pursuing more healthy alternatives such as photography, diving and running.

Leave the clubbing scene to all these young punks..at least I have a story to tell my kids that their old man used to be havoc in his younger days..hahaha!!!!

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Monday, March 12, 2007

Dried out..

[8:45 pm]

Another hectic week looms ahead..been busy the whole of last week, so much so that I was back at work the whole of saturday.

Been tasked by Boss to help my colleague in Big Boss's taskings, until my whole work has to be ditched aside. It's snow-balling and after reaching home, I am too mentally-exhausted to clear the work. Makes you wonder why there are only 24 hrs in day only...time never seems to be enough...haiz..

Never mind, everything would be over come Wednesday...

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Tuesday, March 06, 2007

When you get that extra bar..

[6:58 pm]

it means that when you speak, people will give you some face and listen to you.

that you won't be disregarded by the higher-placed personnel.

your pay increases by a few hundred dollars.....BUT, the amount of work you are given is a exponential of that too.

OTHER THAN THAT....

my life is still the same, I am still the same guy who solves your IT problem, the same guy who coordinates all the meetings, writes the minutes and white papers.

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Sunday, March 04, 2007

Reflections at Bukit Chandu

[5:59 pm]

Instead of studying for my test tomorrow, I drove down to Bukit Chandu to visit the place, since it was the site of our country's last battle.

Actually, to quote from National Heritage Board's website; " Reflections are Bukit Chandu is a World War II interpretative Centre housed in a restored colonial bungalow. Set in lush green surroundings amidst the picturesque Pasir Panjang area, it tells the tale of the Battle of Pasir Panjang on 14 February 1942 when 1,400 brave and valiant soldiers from the Malay Regiment chose to fight to their death against 13,000 Japanese soldiers."

I didn't go in to see the exhibits as I always feel that visits to museums should be free like what it is practiced overseas. Instead, I walked around the perimeter and went on to the canopy walk..the pictures are posted below..enjoy!!!

The entrance from the carpark

The restored Colonial Bungalow with a war mural depicting the last battle at Pasir Panjang Ridge. The exhibits are all inside.

The canopy walk

An expensive Condominium located at the top of the ridge. Don't know how much it costs, but I think it should be pretty expensive judging by the views below from the balcony;

View of Rochester Park..not bad right?

The balcony overlooking the views above

The view from Pt 226. The last point of defence for our heroes

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Food for thoughts

[1:19 am]

What an "interesting" evening today has been...thought it would be just another day at father's annual CNY function.

Just as I was starting to feel bored, my intoxicated cousin got into a fight, yah, right in the middle of the party with a SS member. 4 of us had to hold him back, calm him down and prevent the ruckus from going any further. Father and Uncle was very upset by this and it was pretty evident when Uncle slapped my cousin right in front of so many guests.

Mind you, my cousin is married with one baby daughter and his family was there. What set me thinking is that how come you can't think of your wife and kid first when you get into a fight? Is it worth it to get into a fight with such a lowly character? If you get behind bars, who is going to take care of the wife and kid?

Sometimes, being impulsive isn't the way to go..whatever you do, you have to think of the consequences. So what if you have the momentary feeling of satisfaction in winning the fight?What will it prove? Take me for example, if I had punched that fella back then (most of you know the story..I shan't elaborate further), I would had been thrown inside the jail and my future would had been ruined.

I might be impulsive and bad-tempered by nature (yes, I have a very nasty temper, don't try me), but when I think of what my teacher said to me when I was in secondary school; "Whatever you do or say, think before you do it, if not you would live to regret it.", I will always take a deep breath and walk away. I will think; what for? worth it meh?

Unless, if anyone tries to harm my family and men, then will I fight for their rights.

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Saturday, March 03, 2007

More photos..

[11:27 am]

Just a random post to showcase the photos I took not too long ago..

Photos were taken when I dropped by Cosy Bay to capture the night scenes. As usual, only settings on the exposure and shutter speed were used to captured the images. No flash was used. Enjoy!!! Comments and critics are welcomed..heh..

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Friday, March 02, 2007

Rain, rained..drain, drained

[6:38 pm]

Haiz..been raining for so many days, just like a reminiscence of December..everything looks so drabby..which is turning me off from hitting the streets.

The rain has prevented me from doing my runs (not that I have been keeping to my schedule..heh). Can't drive the car about, 'cos it's in the workshop for a broken automatic transmission switch and a major servicing, which will be straining the pocket (in the region of $1000 odd), haiz..

And it doesn't help that your's truly has loaned out his $$ to friends in need. Luckily with the promotion, I will have more $$ to save. Figured that I have not been saving as regularly as I did when I was in university. With me getting older, I MUST save up, for my future wife, my house, my graduate studies, my car and backpacking trips. Time to watch those expenses and buy less of those model aircraft.

There's so many things to do yet everything needs $$$..haiz..sianz..

Hopefully I can strike Toto today..then the problem would be solved..heh!!

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Thursday, March 01, 2007

Sianz..

[7:44 pm]

Nowadays, I do not have any mood to do anything, unless it lies within my attention span.

Don't know why, just that it seems to be those mood swings again. After a 2 weeks hiatus from office (yup, 1 week on leave and another week on course), I still feel like shit. The course has been a very interesting affair and I am pretty fortunate that boss-minor sent me. It will sure aid me in my work when I get posted out in the near future.

Even though I enjoyed every minute of the course, it can be annoying when the office calls you about this and that..haiz..and it doesn't help when the one who is covering for you has been overwhelmed with plenty of work.

But I have since adopted a SBC (simply bo chup) attitude towards all these office work and instead focus on my own work scope.

Enough of all these random rants, at least there was a bright moment today, I got promoted..yey!!

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